The Spirit Life with Tommy White

Nemisis

2011-09-08T01:37:00.000-05:00

A coward dies a 1000 deaths and is soon forgotten.
A warrior never dies and lives through his legend.
Tzu Sun,The art of war,

Discretion is the better part of valor,Unknown Knight Templar,The crusade's Jerusalem.

Nemisis is about my awakening and using my dormant gift to fight the worst kind of enemy. Fear hidden away but never forgotten. I am enthralled by the arthur mythology and have woven its mystique in good triumphing over evil

It is the first of 4 songs that will weave a tapestry of my life and explain my ascendance more eloquently than I.

My father was his own worst enemy and mine.

In my dreams I sought to see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day
It would be a great journey of distance.
Courage would be my map of only one chance.
But if i didnt be brave and go

.
I gamble to never find my real.
and unlock the my maiden of love and feel
And restore my soul.
Vanquish the serpent who still had a hold

It would be a journey of great distance.
Some never take it.Never see their chance.

In my dreams I sought to see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day

I always knew to to win.
I have to make the final journey within.
In my dreams I always trembled to begin.

In my dreams I sought to see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day
It would be a great journey of distance.
Courage would be my map of only one chance..
But if i didnt be brave and go.

How could I ever find my soul key.
And unlock the the magic to be whole.
I would finally know

My dreams I sought Into see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day
It would be a great journey of distance.
Courage would be my map of only one chance.

In a unknown fearful way.
I made my way back to the serpents umarked grave.
This way I thought I would never come.
Sealed the chambers of the past.
Never looked back and the years and time did run.

In my dreams I sought to see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day
It would be a great journey of distance.
Courage would be my map of only one chance.

So as the light faded from the day.
I knew finally it was the only way.
I unsheathed my sword of verse.
Rendered away the chains of a past long buried away.

In my dreams I sought to see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day
It would be a great journey of distance.
Courage would be my map of only one chance.

Trembling I descended into the abyss.
I would finally come to know.
If I could finally defeat the serpent of rage.
And find the key of my soul.

I came upon a long cold dark hall.
A souls gallerys of paintings of all my fall's
Only glowing was sword of verse bright.

I saw chambers of stories I could never tell.
Demons who never let me be well.
Always locked by the serpent into hell.

My soul was always bleeding,
Drained of a losing fight.
I seek the soul key to unlock my life

My goddess music.
My muse.

My guiding light.
Taught me truth was my map to the bright.

So as the light faded from the day.
I knew finally it was the only way.
I unsheathed my sword of verse.
Rendered away the chains of a past long buried away.

In my dreams I sought to see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day.

I seek to make my life's book real.
Not a work of ficton of non real

How could I ever find my soul key.
And unlock the the magic to be whole.
I would finally know

So at the end of the hall.
I gazed into a jade crystal ball
it had nothing at all.

The dragons of addiction slowly circled above me.
Followed by minions of self lies and hypricosy.

I knew to break their spell over me.
I must confront the serpent who had my soul key.
How could I ever know.
Unless I used my sword of verse and saved my soul.

My soul was always bleeding,
Drained of a losing fight.
I seek the soul key to find the real me.

My goddess music.
My muse.
My guiding light.
Taught me truth was my map to the bright.

So finally I came to the serpents door.
Would I return or be no more.

So as the light faded from the day.
I knew finally it was the only way.
I unsheathed my sword of verse.
Rendered away the chains of a past long buried away.

I saw a great mirror on the wall.
Out to the serpent I did call.
The glow beckoned to me.
Here is what you seek.
Dont look in or never be free.

The dragons of addiction tried to overtake.
My armor of bright didnt break
brought fear into my soul.
With a trembling hand I wiped away dust of deceit and decay.

I opened my eyes and to my surprise.
I saw no serpent of fear and waste and lies
I saw my soul key I looked into my own eyes.

The verses came to me. My armor was music,My sword melody.

It only has a spell if you feed the serpent hate pain and lonely.
All along you had the key to unfree the maiden of love verse and harmony

My soul was always bleeding,
Drained of a losing fight.
I found the soul key to find the real me.

My goddess music.
My muse.
My guiding light.
Taught me truth was my home to the bright.

I gambled to find my real.
and unlocked the maiden of love and feel
And she made me whole.
Vanquished the serpent and music restored my soul.

So as the dark faded into the day.
I knew finally it was the only way.
I resheathed my sword of verse.
After I Rendered away the chains of a past long buried away.

My dreams I sought Into see beyond the mist and gray,
Buried beyond the hand of man.Hidden from light of day
It would be a great journey of distance.
Courage would be my map of only one chance.

Spin Time Back

2011-09-08T01:36:00.001-05:00

I was alone under the memories of moon glow.
Thinking of people and moments from long ago.

I thought of how i used to not think i would ever change.
And i would ever fear time and its cruel game.

I want to spin time back but i cant i know.
I know that people come and go away.

And i thought i would never feel the strain.

I thought of how i used to not think i would ever change.
And i would ever fear time and its cruel game.

I was alone under the memories of moon glow.
Thinking of people and moments from long ago.

I thought of how i used to not think i would ever change.
And i would ever fear time and its cruel game.

I want to spin time back but i cant i know.
I know that people come and go away.

I want to spin time back but i cant i know.
I am caught in rain drops of unknowingly causing pain.

And to all of past people who never will see my hearts change.
And i wish my love for them i could spin time back and show.

I was alone under the memories of moon glow.
Thinking of people and moments from long ago.

I thought of how i used to not think i would ever change.
And i would ever fear time and its cruel game.

I want to spin time back but i cant i know.
I know that people come and go away.

And i thought i would never feel the strain.

I want to spin time back but i cant i know.
I am caught in rain drops of unknowingly causing pain.

And to all of past people who never will see my hearts change.
And i wish my love for them i could spin time back and show.

I was alone under the memories of moon glow.
Thinking of people and moments from long ago.

Highway 35

2010-10-11T07:18:00.002-05:00

Highway 35 is the 4th chronological song in my evolution. is about me living with my grandparents before their death and after the deaths at different times of my baby sister and parents and the seeds and core values of my unknown gift were born.

A lot of people always tell me aren't you a country boy from San Marcos.
Where's a country song ?

So sat and thought and played some notes on the guitar and here it is.

In my life, So far I have Gone
But I know there's no return to no family and home.

And as the years and miles go by
But I can always in my minds eye.
For a minute Take the years back and go down highway 35

I remember what grandpa taught me about love country and family.
Grandma playing piano and teaching me song and harmony
She gave me the gift and opened the way back for me.

In that old southern white painted church JESUS set my soul free.
They went to heaven and left.
But in my heart their always with me

I wish I had known how time would fly.
I would have told them more I loved them so.
The world was mine and I had to go.

And it makes me cry
There's no one to go back to down highway 35

In my life, So far I have Gone
But I know there's no return to no family and home.

I remember what grandpa taught me about love country and family.
Grandma playing piano and teaching me song and harmony.
She gave me the gift and opened the way back for me.

In that old southern white painted church JESUS set my soul free
They went to heaven and left
But in my heart their always with me

In my life, So far I have Gone
But I know there's no return to no family and home

I wish I had known how time would fly.
I would have told them more how I loved them so
.
The world was mine and I had to go.
And it makes me cry
There's no one to go back to down highway 35

And as the miles and the years go by.
And in my minds eye.
For a minute Take the years back and go down highway 35

So for I have gone.
But I know there's no return to no family and no home.

I never thought I could write something so touching that it would make me cry,
Thank you JESUS for never giving up on me and giving me this gift.

Tommy

Father Song

2010-10-11T07:17:00.003-05:00

Song 1 nemesis was about how music helped me deal with fear and loss and understand,It was forged in the heat of my youth and finished on the anvil of self realization. The serpent was my father.

Song 3 Father song is a understanding that my father had
PSTD and was bi-polar and a drug and alcohol user.
And was at war with himself and stygmitized in an ignorant
country.

To truly love and forgive,We must understand why we are doing it

In this later days of wisdom in my lfe.
I see you in a different light

Always on the road somewhere to drive.
Demons from vietnam always in your mind.

Maybe I thought you were supposed to always hold me and keep away the cold.

You fought for the land of the free,I thouht you should be a hero to me

But always you seemed to die a little every day inside and grow old

I wish as a man i could have known you and told you I am always here.

I know what you go through and I know lonely and fear.
I know how painful is the scarring of the soul
.

I lost my mother and sister but you lost a child of you two and the love of your life.

So I hope that you can see found my love for you deep inside.

One day Ill be free from froms earths chains of mortality.
Ill be a stratosphere bolt of pure energy and i'll find you in eternity

I cry for for you and the loss of your soul and love and feelings never to unfold.
I would have been your hero and kept you from the cold of your minds night.

I think of you in the final walk to unknown dark or the joy of heaven bright

Sometimes we cant care at all or lets others past our wall
And Im sorry i didnt know to love you with all my might

I guess we could not get over the cruel hand of fate and ironic night

Father I wish i could have told you but i never could say i don't miss you.

But don't mistake me for a man who never cared at all.

I wish i would have had you longer in my life
The loneliness and pain. we always seem to hide.

I guess always you were gone to keep away and hold your pain inside.

Always on the road somewhere to drive
Demons from vietnam always in your mind.

The day came and I realized to see you through truths eyes.
Now I see a hero who sacrificed his soul and defended wrong over right.

In this my later days of wisdom, I see you in a different light

I cried for what could have been and what wasn't and I released him to the universe.

Tommy

Makin my way to the real

2010-10-11T07:15:00.004-05:00

Song 2 is rebirth and my dawning of how to heal myself.

In my youth they say I embraced darkness,
Embraced pain,looked for the grave,

Dragons of addiction defined my life,
Almost darkened my light,

Many painted my life's canvas dark to gray,
They said my path was an early grave.

So many things .I cant say. Oh i can feel

Now im makin my way to the real,

In my youth they say I embraced darkness,
Embraced pain,looked for the grave,

Dragons of addiction defined my life,
Almost darkened my light,

Sometimes I say we embrace the wrong way to hide our fright,
we all hope to find our way home and see the bright

Now im makin way to the real,
Many painted my lifes canvas dark to gray,

In my youth they say I embraced darkness,
Embraced pain,looked for the grave,

Dragons of addiction defined my life,
Now I undo wrong and seek the bright,

Now im makin my way to the real,

So many things I cant say, Oh I can feel

In my youth they say I embraced darkness,
Embraced pain,looked for the grave
,
Dragons of addiction defined my life,
Now I undo wrong and seek the bright,

Now I write the chapters of my life
Now I choose wrong over right,
My words bring the hope of days. and drive out despair of night

Now Im makin my way to the real,

I unpainted my life's canvas colors from dark to light,
Music is my goddess along the way from I reclaimed my life,
We all want find our way home and see the bright,

So many things I cant say, Oh I can feel,
Now im makin my way back to the real,

I thank GOD every day,
That he brought me to this place,
Tears of joy run down my soul face.
Music my map of destiny guide me on the way.

In my youth they say I embraced darkness,
Embraced pain,looked for the grave,

Dragons of addiction defined my life,
Now I undo wrong and seek the bright,

Now to all trying to find the way,
Dont let others paint your soul canvas dark to gray,

Dont pain and lonely define your life,
Undo wrong and seek what's right,
You'll find your way home to the bright,

In my youth I sought the grave and my soul was ill.
But my Goddess music,My light all the way,
And made my soul start to heal,

So many things I cant say, Oh I can feel,
Now im makin my way back to the real,

Terry Palmer Eulogy

2010-10-11T07:04:00.002-05:00

Terry Palmer was one of those diamonds of humanity so precious and rare in this world
Born into an afluent family They ostracized him because he was gay
He lived the hedonostic lifestyle in florida Drugs sex and all vices
His story is an inspiration to me personally

GODS hands touched him
I was drawn back to the mission and I saw him 3 weeks before his death in typical Terry fashion he said he was being sick so someone else didnt have to be.

I embraced him and hugged him on that cold windy day in the sqaure there We told each other we loved one another
I looked into his sapphire blue eyes and told him ill see you soon As i walked away he was befreinding a new inductee into the mission

I met terry at the mission when i lost my job freinds home and health It was the best thing to ever happen to me
He was the first one to approach me as i nervously waited to see if i could get in

He asked me if i knew the lord I barely anwsered him GODS power hadnt touched me yet
He told me of coming to mission to die of HIV because he had nowhere to go

On his death bed he had no more time to live thats what the doctors said years ago and he proved them wrong living and loving in short years more purely than most do in a lfe time

He said he was dying and all he could here was the respirator and the nurses alarm going off
In his vision he heard a clear voice telling him it wasnt him time to die GOD touched Him

He awoke and within a month his white cells and blood were clean
He was HIV free

On that day Terry Palmer started telling his story and winning souls for the kingdom
He earned his wings and sits with JESUS as we speak today

I and Edaurdo and Terry all started college together
He carried my boooks when I had 2 knee surgerys and had to use cruthces for college

He became a christain counselor and minister
We all got our degrees the first and only 3 at mission still to this day to do it

He stayed at mission and changed his life and impacted countless others
He healed his family and they saw him and they came to truly know the lord

He was my freind and I cant wait to go to heaven and see him
I cry not for sorrow but the beauty of a life lived to from destruction to ressurection
I give you my gift terry only that i show people i love and trust for you.

I call this eternity

Summer is gone cold skys of gray.
.My love for you will never fade.

Embace eternity.
Mortal chains broken you are free.

I wont be sad you are gone.
My love will always live on.

Summer is gone cold skys of gray.
My love for you will never fade.

I know where your at at all is well.
You gave all your love and kept none for yourself.

Now you are free to embrace eternity.
Love you showed is forever bright.

Embraced eternity and flew to the light.

Summer is gone cold skys of gray.
Love and hope of GODS grace.

I long to that day to again see your face.
Summer is gone cold skys of gray.
You live in my heart never far away.

I love you Terry.
Tommy

Hurricane

2010-04-14T04:17:00.002-05:00

I am a force of nature.I learned to bend and not to break.
As gentle as a kiss from a mother to her sleeping babys face.

Saved from the abyss and I almost missed my chance to.
Give my thanks to GOD above for the chance to say.
To all my freinds, I oh so love you.

Burned up in the fires of my mispent youth.
Cooled off in the winds of time and the light of truth

I whirled in a destruction of rage and pain.
I couldnt stop the hurricane.

Then mercy and forgiveness came to me.
My music and my heart set me free.

It was like a soft lovers heat in a summer rain.

Music and love were my angels that saved me from the hurricane

I am a force of nature,learned to bend and not to break.
As gentle as a mothers kiss to her sleeping babys face

I found my destiny and in my life I found my place.

Saved from the abyss and I almost missed my chance to.
Give my thanks to GOD above for the chance to say.
To all my freinds, I oh so love you.

Burned up in the fires of my mispent youth.
Cooled off in the winds of time and the light of truth

I whirled in a destruction of rage and pain.
I couldnt stop the hurricane.

Then mercy and forgiveness came to me.
My music and heart set me free.

I am a force of nature,learned to bend and not to break.
As gentle as a mothers kiss to her sleeping babys face.

Now I know why.

2010-04-04T21:14:00.001-05:00

I was blind but now I see my soul light.
I used to wonder why I would try.
To find the dark instead of the bright.
No longer adrift upon a sea battling the tides.

Finally peace of mind is mine.
Now I know why.
Now I seek peace.
The angry warrior is left far behind.

My words are my painting upon the colored canvas of my life

I was blind but now I see my soul light.
I used to wonder why I would try.
To find the dark instead of the bright.
No longer adrift upon a sea battling the tides

No longer a prisoner of sad and dark ruling my life.
I wish I could give all of the earth the secret that always was inside.
No one but yourself can take the path and find whats hidden revealed in the wisdom of time

Finally peace of mind is mine.
Now I know why.
Now I seek peace.
The angry warrior is left far behind.

My words are my painting upon the colored canvas of my life.

So if your tired and sad and your light is weak.
Ill give you the secret and its yours to keep.
The simple beauty of it makes me weep.
The treasures of this world ruin many a lifetime.
Its the beauty of love and honesty can unlock your soul to shine

No longer a prisoner of sad and dark ruling my life.
I wish I could give all of the earth the secret that always was inside.
No one but yourself can take the path and find whats hidden revealed in the wisdom of time

I was blind but now I see my soul light.
I used to wonder why I would try.
To find the dark instead of the bright.
No longer adrift upon a sea battling the tides.

My words are my painting upon the colored canvas of my life.

Prophecy of truth

2010-03-13T17:52:00.002-06:00

In your life you thought the fear would never come.
Many have left and you feel your the only one
.

Lifes clock has you under the gun
Souls mirror truth burns you bright as the sun.

Overwhelmed you want to hide.
Knowledege of mortality eating you up inside

Is there a life on the other side of the coin ?
When you realize for all your arrogance, Time you cannot own.

In your life you thought the fear would never come.
Many have left and you feel your the only one.

You chose the world and materailism as your bride.
But youll leave empty as the pendulum swings you closer to the other side

Lifes clock has you under the gun
Souls mirror truth burns you bright as the sun.

Is there a life on the other side of the coin ?
When you realize for all your arrogance, Time you cannot own.

Lifes clock has you under the gun
Souls mirror truth burns you bright as the sun.

.

In your life you thought the fear would never come.
Many have left and you feel your the only one

HEAVENS GOLDEN STREETS

2010-03-08T10:53:00.002-06:00

This is for my freind,Chris Saul.
Who died at his own hand of fear and depression
and left behind hiis childhood sweetheart and baby girl and freinds who loved him dearly.

I wrote this on a morning of rainy and skys of gray.
I wish I could have told you before you went away.

One day again well meet and Ill see you again on heavens golden streets.

We were just kids in a garage band
We talked of fame and riches with our music.
We would marry supermodels and buy castles and beaches in far away lands
and be young forver and that was our plan.

You cant always win and life hands you defeats.

But I pray. Ill see you on heavens golden streets.

We alaways think to live and never a thought to die.
I think of you and laugh then start to cry

I cant undestand and ill never know why.
You chose not to live and accepted to die

You cant always win and life hands you defeats

But I pray ill see you on heavens golden streets

So in the big rock band in heaven on high
Crank up the amp let the music fly.

In my heart our memories ill always keep.

Till i see you again on heavens golden streets

KNOWING

2010-01-28T09:04:00.003-06:00

I know as a man How my time spans and so much undone.
I come into life alone and leave soon forgotten and remembered by no one.

I spent my youth in sin, Was blind and saw again healed from within by GODS son.
I'm not sad Though because Now I know that love and joy healed my soul.

I know that youth is a beautiful rose and that time passes if you don't know.

Your face is a pleasure to see and ill always carry your light with me.

I know as a man How my time spans and so much undone.
I come into life alone and will leave soon forgotten and remembered by no one.

I know every pretty thing the joy it brings to some one.
But all of this earth fades way and soon it will be me to leave this place.

I spent my youth in sin, Was blind and saw again healed from within by GODS son.

Im not sad Though because Now I know that love and joy healed my soul.

I know that youth is a beautiful rose and that time passes if you don't know.

Your face is a pleasure to see and ill always carry your light with me.

The bittersweet irony is that to me that to truly love is to truly grieve for my friends when their race is done

I know every pretty thing the joy it brings to some one.
But all of this earth fades way and soon it will be me to leave this place.

I know as a man How my time spans and so much undone.
I come into life alone and will leave soon forgotten and remembered by no one.

Space of

2009-11-10T09:02:00.003-06:00

I don't need a political machine to transform me into a 1000 points of bright.
Nor to be romanced with a sonnette about a quest of a mythical guiding light.

It came to me in a split second of my mind. Where are my destiny and truth to find. ?
Lifes truths and questions and wisdom can be your ally.

Ill tell you the secret and open your eyes.
.
Lifes truths you cant deny.Your strength begins in the space of ?
Lifes question+Space of your direction+action+moral+space of before your reply+answer to life's destiny.

I don't need a political machine to transform me into a 1000 points of bright.
Nor to be romanced with a sonnette about a quest of a mythical guiding light

Ill tell you the secret and open your eyes

It came to me in a split second of my mind. Where are my destiny and truth to find. ?
Lifes truths and questions and wisdom can be your ally.
.
Lifes truths you cant deny.Your strength begins in the space of ?
Lifes question+Space of your direction+action+moral+space of before your reply+answer to life's destiny.

I don't ned need a political machine to transform me into a 1000 points of bright.
Nor to be romanced with a sonnette about a quest of a mythical guiding light.

A POEM FOR MY MOTHER IN HEAVEN

2009-09-27T07:15:00.003-05:00

Long ago or so it seems,
I remember now,Its like a forgotten dream,
Star crossed babe with new new innocent eyes,

Your beauty was the first thing my eyes had ever seen,
I remember and still hear your voice,
Sometimes I have to remember you had no choice,

Long ago or so it seems,
I remember now,Its like a forgotten dream,
Star crossed babe with new innocent eyes

I still feel when when you were taken away from me,
Joined GOD in eternity,
Sometimes we never know why things are meant to be,

Long ago or so it seems,
I remember now,Its like a forgotten dream,
Star crossed babe with new innocent eyes,

In a rage I cursed GOD on high,
In darkness my misspent youth time did fly,

Father never was there for me,
I was crowned the king of pain and lonely,

Intoxicated and out of my mind,
I saw no good in humankind,

Long ago or so it seems,
I remember now,Its like a forgotten dream,
Star crossed babe with new innocent eyes,

You taught me learning was my magic carpet,
And the whole world was my prize,

In sad too deep and out of touch,
Lost in rage and too late in time,
Till my muse gave me the gift of verse and rhyme,

Now i'm still a star crossed babe with wise innocent eyes,
But now I realize,

You have to forget the past,
To spread your wings and fly,

Long ago or so it seems,
I remember now,Its like a forgotten dream,
Star crossed babe with wise innocent eyes,

Your beauty was the first thing my eyes had ever seen,
I remember and still hear your voice,
Sometimes I have to remember you had no choice,

I hope you hear my poem in heaven and remember my voice,

Now i'm still a star crossed babe with wise innocent eyes,
But now I realize,

You have to forget the past,
To spread your wings and fly,

What Might of been

2009-09-24T21:38:00.002-05:00

Every now and the past breaks in,
I think of you my love,
What you could have been if given all those years,
I dream of what might been of,
And begins the rainfall of tears

What you could have been if geiven all those years,
You could have flown so high,
The past pulls away , I see you so clear,
I wish could I be with you my dear.
Im bound to earh, I dont have wings yet, I cant fly.

I remember you my love,
I cry for what might been of
The past pulls away I see you see so clear

Every now and then the past breaks in,
I think of you my love,
What you could have been if given all those years,
Soul pain is my symphony and verse my raindrops of tears,

I think you my love,
As an angel so far on high,
I want see be with you,
Im bound to earth.No wings yet,I cant fly

Every now and then my hearts unlocks the past
What you could have been if given all those years,
I dream of what might been of,
And begins the rainfall of tears

I think you my love,
As an angel so far on high,
I want see be with you
Im bound to earth> no wings yet I cant fly

Every now and the past breaks in,
I think of you my love,
What you could have been if given all those years,
I dream of what might been of,
And begins the rainfall of tears

2009-09-22T00:08:00.003-05:00

This is for my friend, Rocco whose wife was killed in a car crash

So many Things I wish I could say.
Out side another rainy day.
I think of you and and time slips away.

So tell me can true love last forever ?

Will I see you again in eternity To be together ?
Emotions in me are so strong

As long as my heart beats.
Its rhythm is our soul song.

People try talk and don't know what to say.
No words for you going away.

So many things I wish I could say.
People come in life,Then go away.
I think of you and time slips away.

So tell does true love last forever.

Will I see you again in eternity To be together ?
Pain is me is so strong.

As long as my heart beats.
Its rhythm is our soul song.

Now Things of you mean so much.
The smell of your perfume and your delicate touch.

So tell me does true love last forever ?

Will I see you again in eternity to be together ?
I remember life and passion with you.
My love is forever and so strong

As long as my heart beats.
Its rythm is our soul song

THE BEST

2009-09-02T03:54:00.002-05:00

Sometimes to remember where your going,
Think about where youve been,
Rise up to the day and battle again

Sometimes its hard to shine through,
And the whole world is against you,
And it seems your best wont do,

I dont know all But this is true,
Do your best for yourself and youll make it through,

Sometimes to remember where your going ,
Think about where youve been,
Rise up to the day and battle again,

When it seems the color of the day is darkened into night,
Never give and up always fight,

I know its hard to shine through,
And the whole world is against you,
And it seems your best wont do,

i laugh when I think of what ive been through,
And I always smile when I think you,

Sometimes to remember where your going,
Think about where youve been,
Rise up to the day and battle again,

OUT OF THE BLUE

2009-09-02T03:50:00.002-05:00

I wrote this about a girl I met on the train who's always sad

Under dark of night Sometimes I see you,
Wonder what you've seen and went through.
Sometimes in this life we live lies not the truth,

Out of the blue,As If I always knew,
Look for happiness within you,

I speed along with the city lights,
Vision sparkles with energy bright,

Under dark of night Sometimes I see you,
Wish I knew what you've seen and went through.

Out of the blue,As if I always knew,
I really wanted to tell you.

I know how you feel and what you go through,

I feel the magic of a summers night
World sparkles with energy bright

Out of the blue,As if I always knew.
True happiness lies undiscovered in you.

Under dark of night sometimes I see you,
Wonder what you've seen and went through

If Today was your last day,

2009-08-01T06:46:00.002-05:00

This is for my great friend 'Pop's Schultz's who died at 67 and was like a father to me,
And told me to do what you say and say what you mean.

Time cant erase what we do and say,
Live every day like it was your last day,
Things change and people go away,
If I never saw you again,
Given the chance what would you say ?
If today was your last day,

Time cant erase what we do and say,
Life isn't measured by the hour and the minute,
Its counted by the love and the friends in it,
What would you do and where would you Go ?
How would you treat people that you know ?

Time cant erase what we do and say,
Live every day like it was your last day,
Things change and people go away,
If I never saw you again,
How could I tell you I love you and you are my dearest friend,

Time cant erase what I do or say,
Always remember If today was my last day,
I just want to say,
If I never saw you again,
I want you to know I love you my dearest friend,

Time cant erase what we do or say,
Live every day like it was your last day,
Things change and people go away,
Where would you go and what would you say ?
If today was your last day,

Time cant erase what we do or say,
Life isn't measured by the hour and minute,
Its counted by the love and the friends in it,
Things change and people go away,
live every day like it was your last day,

OUTSIDE

2009-05-02T22:47:00.001-05:00

I saw the world outside
Tired from the day
Thought about what it said to me
All I know Time isnt but love is eternal and free
Sometimes I wonder if all in vain
Good so hard to find
World in hate and pain
I saw the world outside
Closing of the day
Thought about what it said to me
Beautys fades and comes Loss of physicality
All I know Time isnt but love is eternal and free

SAY WHAT YOU FEEL

2009-04-19T06:06:00.001-05:00

Sometimes in the blur of days gone by
I think of those gone before me,And I dont know why
So many things to say and sometimes we dont try
When its our time Who knows the plan ?
Youth and beauty gone Sometimes before we understand
In my life its come to this and no more do I want to miss
A chance to see a beautiful sky A chance to show and feel love
To be beautiful like our father above
Sometimes in the blur of days gone by
We forget to laugh and look for reasons to cry
He holds all time in his hands and wants us to understand
That you for a moment are only a flame,life is real not a game
That we need to see lifes not a mystery
Its all how you prepare for eternity
Sometimes in the blur of days gone by
I think of those gone before And I dont know why
So many things to say and I want to cry

SECRET

2009-04-19T06:05:00.002-05:00

Ill Tell you a secret,Come close to me
Your born run love wild and die free
many are cold and I dont know why
What can keep them warm ?
Foolishly they beleive solitude keeps from harm
Ill tell you a secret,Come close to me
Your born run love wild and die free
Many in their hearts love is absent
Lost their flame and their innocence
Ill tell you a secret,Come close to me
Your born run love wild and die free
Many are cold and I dont know why ?
They forget to look inside for their souls key
Have darkened their light encircled by a wall
Cant see or change Ready to take a fall
Ill tell you a secret,Come close to me
Your born run love wild and die free

Earth Angels

2009-04-09T02:30:00.001-05:00

To them they fight alone
Broken wings for sins unattoned
Looking for flight from unseen and unknown
Eternity stays after flesh and spirit leaves bone
On broken wings theyve fallen
And for some wont be long
Ending with out that feeling
Entering eternity into fear of unknown
To them they fight alone
Scattered as if never one
Burned up in eons and sun
looking for flight from unseen and unknown
Eternity stays after flesh and spirit leave bone
To them they fight alone
broken wings for sins unattoned

Peace

2009-04-01T19:00:00.002-05:00

If you wish to experience peace, provide peace for another. If you wish to know that you are safe, cause another to know that they are safe. If you wish to better understand seemingly incomprehensible things, help another to better understand. If you wish to heal your own sadness or anger, seek to heal the sadness or anger of another.

Dalai Lama

2009-03-24T15:15:00.001-05:00

How would it be
if just for today
we thought less about contests and rivalries,
profits and politics,
winners and sinners,
and more about
helping and giving,
mending and blending,
reaching out
and pitching in?

STILL SOUL SONG

2009-03-23T14:44:00.001-05:00

In the silence of not a single word
Sometimes better quite not heard
I seek JESUS I call out his name
He comes to me In my soul falling like rain
Turmoil in my soul He puts to rest
Saved me from myself and my life he blessed
In the silence of not a single word
Sometimes nothing left to say
I feel him and the world goes away
I seek him and I call his name
He forgives No guilt and blame
All by myself and thats ok
GODS love for me never goes away
Words of GOD speak To my soul like rain
in the silence of not a single word
Sometimes better quite not heard

Soul Radiance

2009-03-23T14:43:00.000-05:00

There are stars whose radiance is visible on Earth though they have long been extinct. There are people whose brilliance continues to light the world even though they are no longer among the living. These lights are particularly bright when the night is dark. They light the way for humankind.

Hannah Senesh, 1921-1944

Hungarian-born Poet and Soldier

PSALM BY GREAT FREIND LONDON

2009-03-22T08:42:00.000-05:00

(A)Preserve me, O God, for (B)I take refuge in You.
2I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord;
I (C)have no good besides You."
3As for the (D)saints who are in the earth,
They are the majestic ones (E)in whom is all my delight.
4The (F)sorrows of those who have bartered for another god will be multiplied;
I shall not pour out their drink offerings of (G)blood,
Nor will I (H)take their names upon my lips.
5The LORD is the (I)portion of my inheritance and my (J)cup;
You support my (K)lot.
6The (L)lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Indeed, my heritage is (M)beautiful to me.
7I will bless the LORD who has (N)counseled me;
Indeed, my (O)mind instructs me in the night.
8(P)I have (Q)set the LORD continually before me;
Because He is (R)at my right hand, (S)I will not be shaken.
9Therefore (T)my heart is glad and (U)my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will (V)dwell securely.
10For You (W)will not abandon my soul to Sheol;
Nor will You (X)allow Your Holy One to [b]undergo decay.
11You will make known to me (Y)the path of life;
In (Z)Your presence is fullness of joy;
In Your right hand there are (AA)pleasures forever

Inevability of Finality

2009-03-19T20:56:00.000-05:00

Because we do not know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well and yet everything happens only a certain number of times - and a very small number really. How many times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, an afternoon that is so deeply a part of your life that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more? Perhaps not even that. How many times will you watch the full moon rise, perhaps twenty, and yet it all seems so limitless..."

Paul Bowles 1910-1999
American Writer and Composer

WORDS OF MASK LEWIS GONE AT 45

2009-03-11T19:32:00.000-05:00

Life is full of influences, It's your application that sets you apart.
That's something I wrote to myself and completely believe in. You can't be scared to set out to do something in life because you believe it may be similar to something, or because you don't know the clear cut path on how you're going to accomplish your goal or dream! Just take a step towards your belief daily - fearlessly, wholeheartedly, digging and dreaming within yourself, believing that as you push on through sacrifice, you will one day stand alone on top of a hill that you created that now encourages and inspires others to chase their dream. Knowing that through tenacity and patience anything can be achieved.
If you simply believe

AGELESS WISDOM

2009-03-11T13:59:00.000-05:00

He who floats with the current, who does not guide himself according to higher principles, who has no ideal, no convictions – such a man is a mere article of the world's furniture – a thing moved, instead of a living and moving being – an echo, not a voice.

Henri-Frédéric Amiel, 1821-1881
Swiss Poet and Philosopher

AMBITION & DIRECTION

2009-03-11T13:53:00.000-05:00

“Wake up each day knowing where you're headed, which direction you're taking and what you are going to accomplish and then stick with it!”

CONSTELLATIONS

2009-03-07T17:16:00.001-06:00

At night i gaze upon constellations
Try to find my place in life situations
So hard & easy to choose wrong or right
The more the light pours through me
The more i closed my eyes
Darkness consumes me
Ive pretendted I was burning bright
Not given to superstition
Lifes full of contradictions
I gaze upon constellations
Think about my self manipulations
The more light pours through me
I try to close my eyers
Before darkness consumed me
I pretended I was burning bright
Only you and i have soul conversations
I cant hide my situations
The more the light pours through me
I understand and finally realize
Dont give up without a fight
Free my soul from machinations

JUDGEMENT

2009-03-06T04:48:00.001-06:00

To measure you by your smallest deed
is to reckon the ocean by the frailty of its foam.
To judge you by your failures
is to cast blame upon the seasons
for their inconsistencies.

Kahlil Gibran, 1883-1931

FOOTSTEPS

2009-03-05T08:28:00.000-06:00

As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives.

MERCY POEM

2009-03-05T07:09:00.001-06:00

In this world I long to see
More GOD and mercy
When you pass a soul on the street
Dont meanness add to their defeat
Money and possesions of this world wont last
Jesus says this too shall pass
In this world i long to see
more GOD and mercy
We see poor souls Their light has gone gray
Cover our hearts and look away
When my mortal chains are broken
And my soul is set free
In heaven I long to see GOD
And thank him for his mercy

PLANTING

2009-03-04T17:03:00.001-06:00

A demonstration of Faith

Giving tells the Universe that you believe you are provided for. For even as you empty your purse, you fear not. The act alone is a demonstration of faith that you will remain whole, that your coffers will be replenished, and that love is what matters most. And for whomsoever believes these things to be true, it shall become their reality, and abundance shall be showered upon them unceasingly, as if the heavens had opened up.

JESUS said we will be known by our fruits

Remember This One?
"Plant a kernel of wheat and you reap a pint; plant a pint, and you reap a bushel. Always the law works to give you back more than you give." - Anthony Norvell

POIGNANCY

2009-03-03T01:37:00.001-06:00

For So long I couldnt see
I had the gift inside of me
I have what others could not find
An open heart and a free mind
Some play hit and miss
I wouldnt change any of this
Tears to my eyes when i realize
That for some they run out of time
For so long i couldnt see
But now my words carry beauty and poignancy
And now i run towards the light
I realize that ill be just fine
Now i finally see wjhat i could be
I dont back down but i go to my knees
And thank the one who made me
And when my race is done
Ill go to the one who loves me
And made me finally see the gift in me

Tommy

STILLNESS

2009-02-23T01:47:00.001-06:00

Something not of this world I seek
Something yet undefined
I show brightness But im still blind
Something you will never see
Sought after I cant yet find
In stillness to the lord I speak
Surrents of color in my dreams
Something not of this world I seek
Something yet undefined
Wisdom is precious more than gold
Lucre cannot buy peace of mind
In stillness to to the lord I speak
I show brightness but im am blind
Something not of this world I seek
Something yet undefined

Eternity

2009-02-19T08:01:00.002-06:00

This is about my great freind Terry Palmer who humbles me when it comes to the kingdom heaven and our lord Jesus

Terry Palmer was one of those diamonds of humanity so precious and rare in this world
Born into an afluent family They ostracized him because he was gay
He lived the hedonostic lifestyle in florida Drugs sex and all vices
His story is an inspiration to me personally
GODS hands touched him
I was drawn to the mission and I saw him 3 weeks before his death in typical Terry fashion he said he was being sick so someone else didnt have to be
I embraced him and hugged him on that cold windy day in the sqaure there We told each other we loved one another
I looked into his sapphire blue eyes and told him Ill see you soon As i walked away he was befreinding a new inductee into the mission

I met terry at the mission when i lost my job freinds home and health It was the best thing to ever happen to me
He was the first one to approach me as i nervously waited to see if i could get in
He asked me if i knew the lord I barely anwsered him GODS power hadnt touched me yet
He told me of coming to mission to die of HIV because he had nowhere to go
On his death bed he had no more time to live thats what the doctors said 5 years ago and he proved them wrong living and loving in 5 years more purely than most do in a lfe time
He said he was dying and all he could here was the respirator and the nurses alarm going off
In his vision he heard a clear voice telling him it wasnt him time to die GOD touched Him
He awoke and within a month his white cells and blood were clean
He was HIV free
On that day Terry Palmer started telling his story and winning souls for the kingdom
He earned his wings and sits with JESUS as we speak today
I and Edaurdo and Terry all started college together
He carried my boooks when I had 2 knee surgerys and had to use cruthces for college
He became a christain counselor and minister
We all got our degrees the first and only 3 at mission still to this day to do it
He stayed at mission and changed his life and impacted countless others
He healed his family and they saw him and they came to truly know the lord
He was my freind and I cant wait to go to heaven and see him
I cry not for sorrow but the beauty of a life lived to from destruction to ressurection
I give you my gift terry only that i show people i love and trust for you

I call this eternity

Summer is gone cold skys of gray
My love for you will never fade
embace eternity
mortal chains broken you are free
I wont be sad you are gone
My love will always live on
summer is gone cold skys of gray
My love for you will never fade
I know where your at at all is well
You gave all your love and kept none for yourself
Now you are free to embrace eternity
Love you showed is forever bright
Embraced eternity and flew to the light
Summer is gone cold skys of gray
Love and hope of GODS grace
I long to that day to again see your face
Summer is gone cold skys of gray
You live in my heart never far away

I love you Terry
Tommy

gdom of jheaven

Reflective

2009-02-17T23:13:00.001-06:00

In the morning light
I Ponder amid reflection
Try chart my life with divine direction
Things I ve done dont ask me its forgotten time
life lived with no reason or ryhme
I Ponder amid reflection
Now I go inside for introspection
Driven to my souls creation
Lifes is its own education
Emotions pour through me
I cant tell you why
Inside of my world
where does my path lie
I Ponder amid reflection
Souls open all to see
with GODS protection
In the morning light
I Ponder amid reflection

Heres some food for thought as infants we use all our abilities to learn and survive but as we get older we forget to learn,One must always use all of our abilities at all times

TW

Moment

2009-02-17T23:10:00.000-06:00

Remember This One?
"The past does not equal the future. Because you may have failed a moment ago, all day today, or for the last six months, or for the last sixteen years, or for the last fifty years of your life doesn't mean anything. All that matters is what are you going to do now?" - Anthony Robbins

Adrift On an endless sea

2009-02-14T10:57:00.002-06:00

I know this is Valentines day And a day of love
But remember all you lovelorn people sitting at home feeling sorry for yourself
Go somewhere and ill bet you meet someone today feeling like you about today
Quite possibly Cupids arrow could work A little faith goes a long way
Let you heart learn to love again and open up let some sunshine in

TW

My mind sails like a ship under a dim moon
Shadows of past not leaving soon
heart ship adrift on an endless sea
lonelyness forever my destiny
will she come to me
will i become of her all i can be
My mind sails like a ship under a dim moon
Shadows of past not leaving soon
I seek a heart light to break the gloom
How long can i wait is forever to be my compass of fate
heart ship adrift on an endless sea
I feel her is she far or close to me ?
My mind sails like a ship under a dim moon
Shadows of past not leaving soon

Always Tommy

ButterFly

2009-02-12T08:57:00.002-06:00

On today I realize
A feeling unknown overcomes me
Finally eyes are open wide
Shed my old self like a buttterfly
Dont ever wonder why
Some times goodbye is the only chance
I came such a long way
To find my voice to say
Its Better to disappear
As I rocket through the stratosphere
dont ever cry one tear for me
Even beautiful flowers have mortality
Sometimes goodbye is the only chance
On today I realize
a long lost feeling over comes me
I hold in my hand and my heart my destiny
Weigh lifes scales in the balance
Sometimes goodbye is the only chance
On today I realize
I look at a pristine sky
Beauty of GODS life brings tears to my eyes
I no longer have to run in vain
Finally i see
In this life more joy than pain

Tommy

Lord of heaven and sky

2009-02-11T08:20:00.003-06:00

Lord of heaven and sky
You love me i dont why
Every thing is wrought by your hand
I ran before, Now i understand
You love Lord you never quit
tears from my eyes when i realized this
lord of heaven and sky
you love me i dont why
I was blind you made me see
unlocked my soul gave me written beauty
everything is wrought by your hand
I ran before now i understand
Lord of heaven and sky
Your so beautiful
I cant help but cry
You love me now I know why

WHen you feel all alone Think of GODS love and mercy
TW

Answering

2009-02-10T20:56:00.000-06:00

Lately I feel an energy not my own
pushing my soul into unknown
How I feel and what I will be winds of destiny
We all have a cover hoping to never be alone
Love while your here never hate
Goodness look for and happines will be your fate
Lately I feel an energy not my own
Realizng any of this world we dont own
uneasy in my soul I finally come alive
With the truth in one house hate and love cannot reside
So go inside and unlock the door within
spread some love and tranquility and see the sun again
Lately I feel an enegy not my own
Pushing my soul into unknown